Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Distraction from the packing....my journey one year later

What I shared with the amazing fitness group I teach:
This is pushing me waaaaaayyyy past my comfort zone, but I have to share in hopes to give someone else the push to start or continue their journey.  Cannot believe it has been a year since I started my journey of putting ME first.  My health, my fitness, and my heart.  For the past couple of years I have worked out on my own either at home, a variety of classes @ the gym, or upstairs @ the gym.  I was maintaining and staying in my comfort zone.  A dear friend kept trying to get me to try out Body Blast with her, but I was scared!

I wasn't sure how the twins would behave during class (they were 4 at the times) and I had been watching from upstairs Body Blast and it looked INSANE, and definitely something I could not do.  After more and more prodding from Quiana, I finally decided to try out the class.  It was hard, yes, but I did it and the twins behaved.  I was sore, I was whipped, and pushed beyond any exercise I had been doing on my own.  Last December, I started to regularly attend Body Blast whenever I could.  I felt great, and loved the class.  I stayed in the back, making sure to stay away from any and all attention.  Back left corner to be exact.  Once the school year came to an end (May), and I had seen Quiana's changes first hand I very timidly decided it was time to get to the bottom of my eating and ask a personal trainer to help me.  I knew I could push myself in the work outs, but I wanted to achieve more.  I wanted to finally change.  I was extremely nervous to see the changes she would ask of me, but I was NOT happy and wanted happiness.

I had absolutely NO idea that I could be successful, as I struggle deeply with a lack of confidence.  I like to hide behind clothes, hide my body in pictures by always staying in the back, or putting my children in front.  I was ashamed.  Ever since my oldest was born (6 years ago), I struggled with high blood pressure off and on.  I “thought” I was eating right and exercised five times a week, but it was still lingering around.  And migraines!!!  Migraines that required meds, made me vomit, and had to sleep them off.  Life was not enjoyable.

The trainer had me gradually change my diet to a clean diet and what happened beyond the food and the weight was more than I could have ever dreamt of:
* I lost 50 pounds in three months
* Came off all medications
* Migraines decreased and I found the trigger (dairy)
* Ran my first race, the Volkslauf
* Made friends who have and continue to inspire me daily

More than all that, though, I have found ME. I have found the light I was lacking in my life.  I have taken steps towards becoming a Christian, and developing my relationship with God (something I was not ready for when I started this journey, nor did I ever imagine it being a goal).  By listening to God and surrounding myself with amazing women, I was directed into becoming a certified group fitness instructor.  It was NOT my plan.  I am a certified middle school teacher and planned to start teaching in the classroom this upcoming school year, and then I was put in this position.  I was approached and I was pushed.  I did NOT ask for this.  I liked my comfort zone of the back of the class.  There was NOOOOOOOOOOOO way I would go in front of women.  I was not fit enough, I was not skinny enough, simply….I did not feel like I was enough.

I am so incredibly grateful for this group.  My heart is in this group and when I tell you I understand your struggles, I DO! This life is still very new, and I am not strong on my feet, I still waver, and continue to work on me.  But, more importantly, I hope that I can help some of you who are in the same position know that you are not alone, and that you, too, deserve to be happy and have a sparkle and light in your eyes.  Life is sooooo much happier and enjoyable when it happens.  I want other women to feel the empowerment, support, and love from our group just as I was shown.  So to those who have been coming and those that are new to our group, I hope you have found that special feeling this group has given to me and so many others.

I am beyond thankful for everyone who has been with me through this journey and believed in me.  Thank you for making me a part of your group and welcoming me with open arms.  I am simply blessed.


  1. <3 :-D <3 so proud happy and inspired...

  2. Awesome! You look amazing, and even better, you feel amazing. Love it!

  3. Amazing story! You LOOK amazing, so confident and so happy and healthy!! Congratulations!!!


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